Nothing is sacred when no one is saved...
Nothing's forever so count your days...
Nothing is final and no one is real...
Pray for tomorrow and find your empty still...

- Warrel Dane -

 

October 28 2007- My Mood

Haha wow, been one whole year since I have updated this! Well, I am engaged and living in Ontario now. HAHAHAHA take that world. I love you Britt! My little Puddinpop!

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October 27 2006- My Mood

Today is Bryan's birthday. I bought two bottles of Captain Morgans. Mmmm piratey. Sooo piratey. I am so hungry it is not funny. I could eat like.... a whole sandwich. Mmmm sandwich.

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October 17 2006- My Mood

Whee, I got my laptop. It is pimp. Duam AMD processors. Which means I can run Doom 3 and Warcraft at the same time with no lag. That's always cool. Although I never really got into Warcraft much. I'm more of a Final Fantasy fan. But that's ok, an online RPG is still an RPG.

I can't wait for Halloween. Bryan and I are going out to the bar dressed as pirates. Which will be fun. Because we are also dressing as pirates for his birthday. That will also be fun, cuz it's like... 4 days before halloween. Wheee.

Yes, less than a month til Blind Guardian!!! Finally, Bryan and I get to sing Valhalla with Blind Guardian for real! *guitar* Vaaaalllllhalllllaaaaa! Deliverance! But you will have forgotten me!

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September 22 2006- My Mood

Fucking fuck. My phone got cut off. And that blows major donkey balls. Now I can't talk to Britt  I'm paying the bill today, but it won't be processed for like.....5 business days. Bleh.

College is going ok so far....I guess..... didn't really meet anyone to amazing. Bleh college.

I ate a bagel. It was good. I wanted a sandwich though... oh well, bagels are an acceptable substitute for a sandwich.

September 19 was awesome! Whoooo Talk Like A Pirate Day! Yarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!! I am Cap'n Greybeard the Moonless. Yarr! Ahoy!

Dirge of Cerberus was a letdown. Gah! YOU CAN'T WALK THROUGH SMOKE!!!??? WTF!!! Nor can you jump onto platforms that you should be able to. They are only like.. 1 foot above his head, and you can jump like 20 feet in the air.....FUCK!!! You suck SquareEnix. Ballsacks. I like the storyline though. It adds to the relationship between Vincent and Lucretia. Which is cool. And Gackt is in it. Whoooo Gackt. He is sexy.

The new GWAR CD should be out now. I am so gonna get it. Weird Al has a new CD too I think.

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September 8 2006- My Mood

Whooo....I'm back in college.... Kill me now! Oh well, it won't be so bad this year, seeing as how I'm in first semester courses, instead of like in January when I had second sememster courses. Although I'm already stressed out. I hate being around large groups of people. I get anxious. Whoooo for low self esteem. God I am so tired. Oh well.

 Mike (who I worked with on midnights) has been really pissing me off lately. He keeps talking about God and Christianity. I tihnk he is trying to convert me. Fuck that. Christianity is just conformist control.

KISS- Seduction of the Innocent

He always wears his bible belt
The collar under his head
It's like a noose around his neck

His sandaled feet don't touch the ground
Ears don't hear a sound
Seduction Of The Innocent

Everybody thinks there's always a reason
Need a reason to cry
You kiss the hand of the man for all seasons
And don't know why

Say it friend, if you had to do it all over again
Would you know the trickery that he's prayin?

The padre looks well fed
Remember what the good book said
Vultures circle overhead

Whatever gets you through the night
Friends sing to clear your mind
Seduction Of The Innocent

Everybody thinks there's always a reason
Need a reason to cry
You kiss the hand of a man for all seasons
And don't know why

Say it friend, if you had to do it all over again
Would you know the trickery that he's prayin'?
Everybody thinks there's always a reason
Need a reason to cry
You kiss the hand of the man for all seasons
And don't know why

Say it friend, if you had to do it all over again
Would you know the trickery that he's prayin'?

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August 13 2006- My Mood

Anthony = tired. Anthony not getting much sleep. Anthony talk in 3rd person. Anthony find where you live and stab sporks into your eyes....after you make him a sandwich.

I started playing Magna Carta again a bit.

Whooo! Bryan and I are seeing Blind Guardian in November.

I Look At her In That Paper Dress.
I Wonder Why She Won't Burn.
She's Just A Paper Doll, Thats All, Just A Paper Doll.
I Dress Her Up She Knocks Me down
They Try Her On For Size, she Fits Nice.
One Size Fits All
Now Her Soul Is Dead, Now Her Bodies Raw, You Can Numb Her Pain
Watch The Blood Run Down Her Face.
But Dont Take Notice.
Watch The Blood Run Down Her Arms.
Please Don't Take Notice.
I Know You Have Her Soul.
(and) I See It In Your Eyes.
She Knows You Have Her Soul.
(and) She Sees It In Your Eyes.
Now Her Soul Is Dead, Now Her Bodies Raw, WASH AWAY HER PAIN
She Wants You To Eat Her Pain.
She Wants You To Eat Her Remains

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July 10 2006- My Mood

Whoo, been about a month since I updated this. I no longer work at the Lakieview Gas King. I now work at the Soutview Gas King. Wheeee. I beat Tales of Legendia last week. Only took me 68 hours. I also bought Guitar Heroes. Fun game. Not as fun as playing bass for real though. I can't wait to get my next paycheck. I have like 90 hours. That's like..10 hours overtime, and 8 of those hours are holiday pay.

 

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June 11 2006- My Mood

It's my birthday tomorrow. I'm going to be 19. Whoopee. I am so thrilled I somehow made it this far without killing myself. Which is quite amazing. Meh. I'm gonna go to Scores and get drunk. Which will be fun because I haven't gotten drunk in a very long time. But hey, it's my birthday, why not get alcohol poisoning? Oh well. The one person that I want to be here with me for my birthday is too far away to be here (move closer Tiffy)

Ive been pretty depressed lately. For some reason I've been thinking about all the people that it seems I've stopped being friends with for no reason. Which really sucks, seeing as how I've known most of them for years. Like Matt. We used to hang out alot, but we haven't talked in months. Or Tyler, I haven't seen or heard from him since grad, so thats over a year. Jaradin moved to Cambridge Ontario. We used to talk on MSN almost everyday, but I havn't heard from him in months. Melissa...... I dunno what happened there....seems like she was my friend for like....a month.... I dunno....the first time I ever talked to her she said she would be a hard person to get rid of...so I dunno what I did to make her stop being my friend. Kyle....I miss him...he killed himself a few months ago. That makes like...the fourth friend of mine that killed themself.

I'm doing fulltime midnight shifts now. I like that. The night is so much more fun than the day. I get to work with Cam. He's cool. He looks like Kerry King.

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March 14 2006- My Mood

Woot, it is almost somewhat close to Friday, which is St. ANTHONY GETS FUCKEN DRUNK Day.......YAH!!!

ALso, I got my new X-Box yesterday. Which means I can play Morrowind without having to worry about the X-Box freezing the crap up.

I've been listening to Helloween alot lately. Because they are cool and sound Swedish or something, even though they aren't Swedish. But they are still like all "Dr Stein grows funny creatures *guitar solo*" which is good enough for me.

My X-Box is so platinumy silverish. I wanna repaint it a better color. Meh, that takes time. Maybe I'll just put stickers all over it. Meh.

Both Rob Zombie and Atreyu have a new album coming out on March 28th. I want the Rob Zombie album more. I just hope it's better than his last album (The Sinister Urge) which was an ok album, just not as good as any of his previous stuff. Maybe he should reform White Zombie. That would be awesome.

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March 8 2006- My Mood

I have a cold. <sarcasm> YAYYY </sarcasm> This really sucks. My throat hurts. DAMN YOU GERMS! QUIT ATTACKING ME!!!  Death to germs I say.

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March 1 2006- My Mood

My side hurts. I think my Lv 40 Liver is ganking my Lv 7 Kidney. Or something like that. Meh. Not like I need it or anything, as it is just a kidney...or something. I don't want to go to work today.

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Feb 10 2006-My Mood

Gene Simmons. I have lost a lot of respect for this man. First it's his shitty solo album that he put out last year. Then it's that stupid school of rock type thing where he tried to teach British kids how to be cool. And a thousand other little random things (motivational speaker anybody?) But now.....A FUCKING REALITY TV SHOW! Dammit Gene, have you ever watched an episode of the Osbournes? Y'know how your TV show is going to turn out? JUST LIKE THAT! A COMPLETE PEICE OF SHIT AND WASTE OF BLOODY FUCKING TIME! Why do you need a TV show? NOT LIKE YOUR NOT ALREADY A BLOODY MULTI-MILLIONAIRE! I hurts to say this about the guy but.... Gene....you fucked up hardcore. Your not cool anymore. You had your day with Kiss, but your old now. We don't need you, don't need to hear about you, and don't need TO SEE YOU ON A FUCKING TV SHOW!

Ahhh, February. The time of love and my favorite holiday. No, not Valentines Day. I said MY holiday. I call it "Fuck Valentines Day Day" Like Valentines Day, it falls on the 14th of every February. But unlike Valentines Day, it's full of hatred and loathing and bitching, and no love (anyone read my journal entry last year around this time?) Valentines Day is complete bullshit and I hate it. I want it to be destroyed. DIE HAPPY PEOPLE DIE! Fuckers. Now, what does one give on my holiday you may ask. Well, it's not chocolate and flowers. You give eachother gifts of razorblades and weeds. Maybe a dead cat if you really hate them. And you don't take your "signifigant other" out for a romantic dinner. You take them to a graveyard . That's how you express your feelings of hate and loathing

 

Work sucks, college sucks, life sucks. I hope everyone in the worlds just randomly dies all at the same time. It would be funny. Except me, I would still be alive. Then I could steal everyones money, and have sex with their dead bodies. Fuckers.

 

I really have not been in a good mood lately. I just want to kill everyone I see. THen make them get up so I can kill them again. Stress rocks. Especially when your a stressed out psycho depressed lunatic. I'm really tired and stressed out.

 

I think I might quit work. Or drop out of college. Or do both, and then go jump off of a bridge. Or drinks some draino. Or something fun like that.

 

Stupid Valentines day, you think your so good. You and your happy loving couples and your flowers and chocolates. I hate you. Happy people should die and go fuck themselves. What makes you so much better than me? Fuckers. Happy people don't deserve all their happiness. Maybe I should cut off their legs or something. Or rip their arms off and beat them to death. "No! Stop it! Don't beat me to death with my own arms! GRAGHG!" Death. Valentines day should be banned. It's a "holiday" than can only be participated in by some. And by some I mean the stupid fucking happy people that are in relationships. Fuckers. Them and their fucking happiness. I hope they all die in horrible painful ways.

 

In the words of Slipknot:

 

"FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD!
FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!
DON'T BELONG! DON'T EXIST!
DON'T GIVE ME A SHIT!
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME!"

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Jan 26 2006- My Mood

HAHAHAHAHAHA! Gas King ran out of gas. That is just too funny. I went to the bar lastnight. Had some wings and beer with Bryan, Brett, other Anthony, Jeff, Taya, Cam, and 2 random other people. Then I went home. HAHAHA out of gas!

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Jan 25 2006- My Mood

Whooo! I got like.....80% on my first college test. Time to party....or something like that. I have to work tonight. Meh. Lol, I was 1 hour late for work on Monday. I fell asleep when I got home from college, and at like.. 3:30 Barb called and was like "You coming to work?" And I was like all "Awww, do I have to?" And that I did.

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Jan 18 2006- My Mood

My dad is an ass. He wants to kick me out unless I give him $400 a month. All he's going to do with that money is buy beer. If he wants money he should get a job or something, like a average responsible adult (although I guess he isn't that responsible) Meh, what a jerk-ass. I'm just going to let myself get kicked out.

I bought some new videogames. I got Manhunt, Mortal Kombat Deception, and Castlevania: Lament of Innocence. Mortal Kombat was cool. You can be uber dark evil Raiden. And zombie Liu Kang. Or ghost Liu Kang. Castlevania has no storyline. But at least you get to go all Indiana Jones on some zombies

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Jan 16 2006- My Mood:

I had a staff meeting yesterday. It was boring. I also picked up my Nevermore CD that I ordered. Good times.

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January 11th 2006- My Mood:

Mwahahaha, I'm in college now. Take that Bill Gates. Rich jerk. Yesterday I found out that one of the people I work with (Dustin) is in my Business class. That was cool.

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Jan 1st 2006- My Mood:

I got drunk at Barb's lastnight. Barb is the assistant manager. I also went to work still completely drunk. I tripped over the safe and hit my head on the counter. It was funny.

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November 4th 2005- My Mood:

As of...about...... 1:20 AM of Nov 4 2005, I am single. Should have seen it coming. We all know I'm not good enough for anyone. Oh well, back to being depressed.

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October 25th 2005- My Mood:

Saw Still Standing/Alice Cooper. That was cool. Alice Cooper had a prety good show. Still Standing was ok.

Heres some crazy artpad thing I did. Took me like...3 minutes to do (it sucks.....alot) Click Here

Also- I've been thinking of making a seperate website for our band. So we'll see how that goes.

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